Last year my goal was simply to finish the 21 km. I reached that goal. The goal is a little different; this time around, I don't only want to finish the race, I want to do it in a better time than last year. I am confident that I will set a new personal best....otherwise, what's the point?
I've spent a number of hours planning my training schedule & trying to make sure that all my equipment is ready to go....the Garmin will get plugged in to charge tomorrow & since it's all of a sudden winter here in Belle River I guess I better find my running gloves & my hat. Even though the temperature has dipped below zero now I'm really excited to get back on the road to my regular running schedule.
When I'm out running I get lost in time. On almost every run I find myself surprised when I hear my watch beeping to tell me I've met my goal for that day. A small glimpse of Ishvara Pranidhana. But let's get back to that "what's the point" from above.
Why, I wonder, am I placing such a negative spin on the outcome of the race before I even run it? Why am I telling myself that a "better" result this time is required? Being so attached to the outcome may keep me stuck & perhaps even limit my preparation. Releasing the attachment will surely allow me to more fully enjoy not only the process of preparing for my race, but the actual race itself.
I wonder how I will encourage myself to let go of the outcome & begin to incorporate Aparigraha into my life?
Namaste my friends.....
Ultimately there is nothing I can tell you
about surrender except
Having nothing & wanting nothing;
Not keeping score,
Not trying to be richer,
Not being afraid of losing;
Not being particularly interested
in our own personalities;
Choosing to be happy,
no matter what happens to us.
These are some of the clues.
The rest we learn with practice & grace.